A peek into the mind of a torn wolf...

long time no speak all, well not much good has happened recently. Other than being with my lovely wuffie mate, Debbie. that is.

had lotsa bad things on my mind, and it was all great when i was at huntingdon with my love. only thing is of course... i had to come back, and all of the thought are coming back with it.

but yeah, not feeling too good which is why i havent posted in a while, but i promise more is gonna be up on here soon...

Went to camden and blew not only all my Birthday money, but my entire PAYCHECK for the whole damn month too. got a new trenchcoat, new rock boots, leather trouser that make my butt spankableeee, (arrow/debs may spank it ONLY mind you) a pvc shirt, a nightmare before christmas shirt, a suit shirt with chain, buckles and WINGS ON THE BACK, aswell as a rave mask from cyberdog and a new bag. and a spike for my lip piercing. twas fun, and i got my honey a t-shirt for coming along with me.

about the curses part of the title, it was pretty funny, i saw luke daniels ( arch nemesis for life ) and seeing as how i was all gothed up, he tried to avoid me, so i put my face mask on and my hood up and muttered fake arcanic curses under my breath as i walked past him, he shit himself... hehehe.

so yeah malaki is oficcialy back in black and has now got control over about %60 of my mind, heres the lil chart...

Malaki %60
Liam %30
Gambit %20

might change in time, maybe ill do it on each entry. meh i dunno, got work in 3 hours and im dreading it, its a 3 hour shift that feels like 12 hours...


as for cookies, i like the three 'C' alliteration idea so i used that, fisrt idea was carrots... but i like cookies more.

until next time, see y'all around

Love you Debbie <3

Malaki pinkypaws

~xxxxxxx~

soon i will be a technical adult ( regardless of the fact that i am about 3 in mental years... ) and its gonna be one of the worst birthdays yet im afraid.

as some people on here may know i have no cantact with my father, nor have i for my entire life... is just gonna suck to know what we missed on.

but im not gonna rant like an emo, time for funny stuff.

i was dancing to billy Talents 'fallen leaves' and and i cracked my head on the cieling, when i rubbed my head there was plaster on it... from the cieling no doubt o.0

and the whole shop sign thing was hilarious, but i got so told off for that one...

me and debbie are doing fine, 9 days till the two month mark. *w00ters!*

anyway... im off...

She couldnt leave it one year before having to make me feel like shit again could she?... yeah, my ex girlfriend (many will know who i am talking about... but unlike her i am not selfish enough to let people know its her im on about. besides her name brings disgust to me now) decided to start sending messages and inviting me to look at hurtful journal entries again, after almost a year of solitude away from her.

why cant she leave me alone?.

as soon as i read her journals or comments i feel just like i did so many months ago. useless, vile, annoying, ugly and not worth anyones time. Its hard to carry on this life sometimes with her constant stabbing, but i have my Girl, and she is FAR nicer, trusting AND understanding than ANY of my ex's (kain i hope you read this sometime too )

i mean, heres some of the stuff this particular ex did to me, just within TWO YEARS of a relationship.

Told me she was gonna kill herself when she had no intention, and was too far away for me to be of any help other than words. therefore making me a nervous wreck for days.

POSTED ON EVERY BLOG she owned that i had given her a serious STD, when after TWO tests i was tested NEGATIVE for ANYTHING.

Told me she thought she might be PREGNANT, whilst KNOWING she wasnt.

Cheated on me with one of my my best friends.

Cheted on me again with a random stranger.

cheated on me with another guy cause he was closer to her and she could get sex off him easier.

Ignored me whenever she was in a SLIGHT mood, even to the point where i would try to kill myself at night because i thought she didnt love me anymore ( i then realised, she simply NEVER loved me )

Theres much more than this but im ranting.

Kain did his fair share too. he:

Smacked my head against a metal fence because i wouldnt give him sexual attention.

tried to rape me ( before we had properly met and stuff )

wouldnt speak to me unless i gave him sexual attention.

used to belittle me in front of his friends.


(and more)

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But Debs, shes different because not ONCE have i ever felt, Sad, belittled, angry or ANYTHING. SHE IS THE GREATEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO ME.

i just hope after seeing what people have done to me, she may understand why i am so protective over my girl.

i really needed to get this off my back, sorry if i offended anyone ( other than my EX's they can ROT for all i care )

Work is really getting to me now, my manager sits around reading 'HEAT' magazine and eating stuff all day while telling me what to do and expecting it done in milliseconds.

Im going to see debs tonight which is cool! ^-^ WERF!

I hear her ex, Richard is bugging her. so im gonna work extra-special hard to lift her spirits, and perhaps help her to realise that unless she wants to be friends with someone as untruthful and spiteful as him, she can pretty much just ignore him cause he never makes sense anyway and continually contradicts himself. ( oops bit of a rant there, i shall stop before i go all spazmo on y'all )

got a new mobile phone a day back and already it has heavy metal and UBER loads of furry yiffness on it, hardly any memory left on it. but i got credit so i can send Debbie random texts and annoy her, hehehe.

I have spent my paycheck in three days and have next to nothing left... which sucks.


got purple hair though, so all is well. provided Debbie manages to stop staring at/ stroking it sometime soon ( kidding love ;) )

i should really get some sleep as i have work from 9am till 5:30pm... and its 1:10am, but then again i am operating on three hours sleep and feel fine at the moment so... meh.

got a new siberian tiger teddy to go with my collection, her name is Blisten and she is feeling right at home with the others ^-^;;

well, im gonna leave it at this for now. i will start leaving longer entries soon i swear! ^-^;;;

until next time

Love you Debbie!

Malaki Pinkypaws

I haff found my perfect mate, her name is debbie and she is the best thing that has happened to me since bakewell tarts came in bitesize form, or EVEN when kinder eggs began giving DECENT toys in them. nah debs, i jest. I love her more than any bakewell or kinder egg, infact i love her more than anything that has yet entered my life. we have so much in common it is scary, her parents seem to like me and i feel right at home with the entire family in general. we know so much about each other already after talking for hours in the night, and though we probably both keep the odd secret or nervosities to ourselves. i would like to think she trusts me as much as i trust her.

Its only a small entry to celebrate a turning point in my life, but i am so happy about it, right now i feel like i'm...


The luckiest Wolfie Alive.


Until next time,

Malaki Pinkypaws

Luffoo all, but Debbie more ;P

Im new... Please dont hurt me.